Today was my last day of work at Cold Gravy and I am relieved. While it may seem selfish that I'm glad that I'm back to being unemployed I know that for now my place is at home. During my two months of employment my house has gone to shit and my marriage is looking kind of haggard. Moms everywhere work full time jobs and maintain households but after spending over a year and a half as a stay-at-home mom I needed to slowly ease my way back into the real world.

It was fucking hard, y'all.

Most of my hours worked were on weekends and by Sunday night I was beat. I didn't want to do anything but obviously that is NEVER an option when you're a parent and your husband isn't too good at taking the initiative in regards to house work.

Tonight after work the three of us went grocery shopping and when we came back home Jacob sort of entertained Avery so that I could prepare dinner and put away the groceries. I also managed to do the dishes and organize one of my cabinets. The clutter in my house is astronomical, or at least this is how it seems to me. My husband tries to assure me that our house doesn't look like we're on an episode of Hoarders but I'm not convinced.

All I want is to have a clean and organized house but I think that unless I'm living alone it will ever be exactly how I want it. I'm so goddamn nit-picky about where things should go and how things should be folded or put away. Everything has a place! I feel like I need to get out my label maker (please, like you don't have one?) and even label the simplest things. It's frustrating to open the flatware drawer and reach for a big spoon and end up grabbing a little one. Really? There are compartments for each! kind! of! utensil! At least our two different sets of flatware make it into their respective drawers. If I ever saw a fork from set A in the drawer where set B resides I would probably stab someone in the eye with said fork.

ANYWAY, I am grateful to have my time back even if I don't make any money folding my own laundry or sweeping up my own floors. Now I just need to crack down and get this place looking spiffy and clean before I have to toss an eating utensil and perhaps a body into Lake Lewisville.