I have been thinking of a way to start this post with a joke or anecdote but I can't come up with anything that sums it up quite like the following:
I HAVE BABY FEVER.
Like I am burning up and need a cool bath and plenty of fluids and rest. Even after Avery's week of terror (which we are still recovering from) the urge didn't fade. I was focused on my kiddo and getting her better but when she would fall asleep on my shoulder I would melt into a puddle. It made me remember how rad she was as a newborn. Avery slept A LOT. She would nurse and fall asleep and I just held her all. day. long. And I loved it. Sure, there are ass-shaped dents in my sofa and during the first few months of her life I spent way too much time on the internet but it was obviously worth it.
And now I want another bebeh. Avery isn't jealous when I hold other babies and for being an only child who doesn't attend day care she is very social. She shares her food and her toys. She is affectionate and friendly. Basically she is PERFECT IN EVERY WAY and I want to make another one just like her! It'll happen!
Jacob and I have talked about this (a lot, in fact) and we are going to start trying for our second spawn around Avery's second birthday (end of March). We figure that having our kiddos three years apart is best for our family. By then Avery will be potty trained (or else!) and she will almost be ready for preschool so I can devote my undivided attention to the little one while Ave is in school.
Sounds like a killer plan, right? Fuck yeah it does! BABIES! FOR! LAUREN! NOM!
Here's the problem: I'm a fatty. I need to lose about sixty pounds in order to no longer be considered
obese (I fucking hate that word! Hate it!) and I MUST do this before trying to have another baby. I want a healthy pregnancy and a natural birth. I don't want to get pre-eclampsia again. I want to feel good and look good.
So I have the motivation but the will power? Notsomuch.
I am a late night snacker. Actually, I think I fall into the binging category most nights. And yes, vegans can be overweight. Hello CARBS! I drink soda more than water and I don't drink diet pop. I'm a
Pepper, goddammit. Some days all I want to eat is pizza (and yes, I've even had it with dairy cheese lately. That's how out of control my diet is right now). I feel like a blob and that doesn't do much for my self esteem. It's hard to want to make a baby when you don't want to be naked. I know that my husband loves me and finds me sexy but I feel like shit so all of the compliments in the world aren't going to change that.
I need to get my diet back on track. I need to exercise. We have started walking again and will make it a habit again. It's good to walk every evening after dinner. Unless, of course, you eat something that doesn't sit well with you and you have to run back to the house while clenching your ass cheeks so you don't have diarrhea in your neighbor's yard. Not that that's
ever happened to me before.
So there you have it. That's my plan and now I've shared it with the world. It's a long post but it's not like most of you read the entire thing anyway. I can do it and I will do it because I HAVE to do it.
But in the meantime can I hold your teeny baby?
Posts
11 comments:
BABIES!! YUM!
Dude, I have totally felt like. this. for. YEARS. I would grab my nieces and nephews and friends' wee bairns at any chance. But we had 2 and the hubster said "No more."
Even now, being 17 weeks pregnant I hold everyone's babies as much as I can... and I can't wait until March when this babe makes his/her appearance.
Good luck with your weight loss, it will be soo worth it.
I'm on a mission to lose weight too. Not so that I can get knocked up again, which I'm sure will happen in another month or so anyways (JUST KIDDING, God, please, I was kidding), but... I'll slap the carbs out of your hand at 11pm if you knock the sugar out of reach. Did I mention that I gave up sugar? BECAUSE I DID. Its been a week now, and I feel better than ever, but... MY PRECIOUS COOKIES!!!
I can't wait until Avery #2 is on board.
I hope you do not get a non-sleeping, non-cuddling baby like I have.
I have no weight loss advice for you based on the fact you are already a vegetarian. That's what I did to lose 100 pounds 13 years ago. I went from being a meat eater to being a vegetarian. But I stopped eating meat, milk, eggs, bread, pasta and anything carbonated. I lost 100 pounds in 18 months. I guess if you are already vegan the only thing you can do to lose weight is severely lessen your portions and exercise. I hate to exercise. I don't.
I'm so in the same place with my baby fever, but my first baby is still only 9 months old. I exclusively pump and she doesn't sleep much, but for some reason, I totally want another small one!
Weight loss: so hard, I know. I still have some baby weight on me, but it's probably related to being a milkmaker. I know that before I was pregnant, my midwife suggested that I stop eating all sweets, sugar, processed white flour, sodas, juices (except OJ once a day). Mostly it was to flush toxins and to grow an "appropriately sized" baby for my uterus.
I'm a flexitarian, so I eat some fish and shellfish, but no meat. My husband is a vegetarian, and once I had a baby, I tried to go back to an all veg diet, but found that if I eat animal based protein, I have a better milk supply. Before, I wasn't able to feed my baby without supplementing.
Good luck and great blog~
Dude, I feel your pain.
After years and years of trying to get pregnant and finally having that last baby, it's weird to me to have ZERO desire to have a baby. It's the end of a 10 year journey of 3 pregnancies.
Now I see very pregnant women and instead of seething with jealousy...I shudder in horror.
I'm not a baby hater. LOL! I will gladly hold and sniff the hair right off a baby's head. And then give it back. I did my time ;)
I hear ya! I have 2 little girls, 3 yrs apart (which ROCKS!) and my youngest is about the age her big sis was when I got pregnant last time. Everyone around me seems to be having adorable, smooshy little babies... so it's tough, because we're pretty sure we're set with 2.
The only advice I have for you as far as weight loss goes, is to try to give up the soda. I KNOW you think it's hard, but give it a whirl for 7 days. I don't miss it at all. I still drink tea, juice & coffee with meals, but I always have my bottle of water within arms reach. I didn't lose weight at first, but about a month or so in, the weight started slipping off! I've lost 35lbs since giving up soda in January. I'm not consistent about working out, and I still eat what I want but I don't crave the bad stuff as much -- some people believe soda is responsible for the cravings for junk-food. It's definitely easier to just cut ONE thing out for a week to see how you feel and take it from there. Baby steps. ;) GOOD LUCK!!
Now when I see someone with a new baby my thoughts are "better you then me". I know I am now totally over it. No more babies for me.
I am happy to hold other peoples then hand them back!
Oh I feel ya.
Barring a major lottery winning, we are done. But oh how I crave a behbeh. I borderline stalk pregnant women in the office. They are more than a little afraid of me.
I hope you can find the willpower to get your weight to a healthy baby making number. Maybe you can put cute baby shit in the places where you'd normally keep your soda and bad snacks??? Little onesies and pacies??? Just a suggestion.
Good luck
Post a Comment