Thursday, July 8, 2010
X is for Xanax.
What is that expression where you get antsy and have a crazy urge to travel?
Seriously, I can't remember.
ANYWAY, I haz the urge. My dad and I (and the toddler) had planned on taking a road trip this month to visit my sister and niece in Georgia. We miss them and lately my sister has been depressed so we wanted to keep her company. Also? She lives really close to some non-oily beaches.
Unfortunately my dad's boss denied his vacation request. That's bullshit, right? The man has been working for the same company since I was a baby and they won't let him have this one week off? When he told me I could tell that he was upset. We decided to go in August instead.
However, I still have that urge to go somewhere and I know that our family vacation is at the end of July and then I'll be going to BlogHer in August but I MUST GET OUT OF HERE!
After talking with my mom she agreed to help me get to Georgia. Guess how I will be getting there?
In an airplane.
You read that right. AN AIR-FUCKING-PLANE.
Am I crazy? Actually, yes. Yes I am. I am no longer on Zoloft (I weaned myself off of it but I am thinking of getting back on it) because it seemed to have taken me to a certain point and then stopped. Like I am only allowed to be this amount of normal. I would truly love to be MORE normal but it isn't going to happen.
Back to flying. I'm terrified. While I was on a website booking my flight I started turning pale and when I got to the page where I had to select my seat I had to stop for a minute and breathe. That's ridiculous. My mom couldn't believe that I was at the onset of an anxiety attack just from booking the damn flight.
Today I went to a doctor to discuss my options for combating my anxiety attacks before they happen. Prevention is key, my friends. My new doctor (and now my bestest friend) wrote me a 'script for Xanax. It's a small dose - just enough to help me relax. I haven't tested it out yet but I plan on doing it this weekend once I don't have to be anywhere just in case it fucks me up.
I am hoping that the Xanax will be the fix to my traveling nightmares. I want to be able to fly without a huge ordeal surrounding it. My entire family is concerned about me flying. I'll be taking Avery with me to Georgia and I can't have an anxiety attack and compromise my ability to take care of my daughter. Not like last time.
I can do it. I can take the Xanax and it should give me around four hours of crazy-free time.
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9 comments:
Aw, I wish there was something I could say to help your fears. Flying really is the safest way you can travel.
I hope the Xanax works for you and you have a smooth uneventful flight.
Just wanted to wish you luck on your trip! I'm flying to Colorado tomorrow with my son, GULP! It's kind of akin to poking the bear, you never know whats going to happen.
I wish you the best! you will do great
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Good luck with Xanax! My friend has some for when she does hair for pagents (don't judge me, she's awesome promise!) and for her they relax her enough to where the screeching of beauty queen wannabes doesn't make her want to stab someones eyes out!
IT will be okay.
IT will be okay.
I feel your pain on that one!! I wanted to go to Vegas for my Birthday and couldn't get over my anxiety. My doctor also gave me Xanax, but I couldn't tell a difference. I was still too scared to put myself in a situation to see if the stupid pills would work. I hope you get better results. Oh FYI, when I tried to ween myself off them I could not sleep for anything. I was up for days.
Better living through drugs has always been my motto. MDA
You have the wanderlust! Is xanax the cure? If you cure the wanderlust, you don't have to get on an airplane unless somebody dies.
That's how I do it. YMMV
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